Already i had taken on a majority of the chores. She still cooked and did meal planning and prep until W/we retired. Then those chores were handed over to me. Sometimes She would cook if She wanted to, but She expected me to have the ingredients and a plan for dinner, and when i made the mistake of thinking i could wing it and She didn’t find my preparation sufficient, I got a beating that trained me to understand such willful pride was not to be tolerated. In November of 2013, Wife had lost all desire for intimacy. Her libido crashed, and returning to a more vanilla dynamic was the only path to return to health. No longer am i subjected to physical punishments, I can spend my allowance and make social commitments without getting prior approval, masturbate, and ask for intimacy now (though She has always had control of that and still does decide if W/we have sex). After it was over it felt a little like returning to consciousness, or waking up. The first thought i had was that this was what i had begged for, what i knew i wanted deep deep down, to have Wife take control over me. She had done it, and the consequences were that i now knew that my opinion was forever irrelevant. She knew that She could beat me and i was afraid of Her. That changed everything, the game was over, my masculinity was shattered. W/we both knew it and i felt profoundly different, deeply ashamed for my words earlier in the day that appeared as if i had a right to an opinion. At that point i realized that i didn’t ever want another punishment, that i had better never allow myself to think i knew what was correct for me until Wife confirmed it, that from now on my focus was to be as obedient and humble as i could be. Though my butt hurt, i was intoxicated by subspace, enthralled and terrified at the same time. Did you know that women were not granted equal access to Harvard’s Widener Library until 1967? I hadn’t. It was deemed that women’s presence would be “distracting” to the male students studying there. I was horrified. The more I learned about the extreme discrimination against women in employment before and during second-wave feminism, among other things, the more incensed I became. It was one thing, I felt, for a woman to choose to be a homemaker, and another thing entirely for her to be forced to be a homemaker. Even before my own personal beliefs on women’s role in the world began to expand, I came to understand why second-wave feminism happened, and to be glad I was growing up now, and not then.

Trip to the Laundry Room – Jonathan Quincy Graves Spanking A Trip to the Laundry Room – Jonathan Quincy Graves Spanking

I felt this same horror again when watching the above compilation of spanking scenes. I have become an ardent supporter of equality within marriage, and have long rejected even voluntary female submission, but even so, I can feel the horror I would have felt as a young college student. After all, it’s one thing for a woman to voluntarily submit to her husband, free from any coercion but her religious beliefs, and quite another thing entirely for a woman to live in a world where domestic violence is viewed as an acceptable and even preferable punishment for female disobedience. When I endorsed female submission within marriage as commanded by God, I was signing up for the former, and not the latter. Turn on her, refuse her humiliations, give her a spanking, and watch her libido return in an instant. The day of the GREAT BIG SPANKING, She came home from work an hour after me, since i started 5 hours earlier, and She seemed unhappy. Then Her Mom complained about the trash being full, even though i had asked her if she needed anything an hour earlier. Wife confronted me as soon as Mom walked away, and I tried to explain to Her how i wasn’t at fault. When She marched me upstairs for a spanking, i kept thinking that i could explain myself, that She wouldn’t really hit me, because i still believed i had a right to an opinion.When She had rested about 30 minutes, i was told to crawl over to Her and kiss Her feet. Though my face was still wet with tears, i no longer tried to protest my innocence, instead i apologized for not knowing how wrong i had been and begged on my hands and knees for Her forgiveness. She did grudgingly tell me i was forgiven, then instructed me in what chore She wanted me to attend to while She relaxed with a glass of wine, which i gratefully went to go get for Her. Besides losing my manhood, i received Her approval for eagerly doing menial domestic tasks, and this gave me the insight into my proper role, a domesticated sissy. During the spanking, i couldn’t think of anything because it was hurting so much. She is smaller than me physically, but i was incapable of running away or resisting because i just didn’t have it in me to risk losing Her as my dominant. After it began hurting so much, even that didn’t matter. It was overpowering. i wanted it to stop really badly and was crying long before it was over, but it wasn’t over until She decided i had been properly punished.

Miss Sarah Gregory Miss Sarah Gregory

The spanking, that first one, was such a surprise. Her reason for giving me the spanking was because i hadn’t emptied the trash, but She had not asked me to empty it previously. In fact, She had cautioned me not to act too pussy whipped in front of Her Mom, who was staying with U/us. i always was told Her dominance was private and i needed to keep it that way. A s I indicated earlier, She was raised by parents that felt that marriage should be male led, so letting Her Mom see me doing chores would cause problems. Well, at least that’s what i thought. Afterwards, i was made to hold a penny up against the wall with my nose. She still seemed mad and i was so afraid She was going to beat me again. While i held that penny up, my butt was screaming, She had used a long leather handled shoehorn and it seemed each hit had been on either my left or right upper thigh, in that crease right by my butt. Onscreen Spankings: A Look at How Films Punished Liberated WomenFrom the early days of cinema up through the 1960s, a spanking was just a routine part of many onscreen romances. With the camera rolling or not, Hollywood studios reinforced the idea that spankings were a healthy part of a woman’s life. It’s easy to forget how far we’ve come, or that there was a time in living memory when spanking women was considered appropriate and even entertaining. In some of the clips in the compilation above, female child actors looked on as a woman was publicly spanked. What did these girls, and the girls watching in the audience, learn from what they saw? What did these scenes communicate about the relative power between men and women, and about women’s place in the world?Read about Hollywood’s once prevalent trope of spanking women and watch the entire video here: http://trib.al/LnPXjZk Eventually, She has come to accept that i am a sissy, and has been a wonderful guide and teacher for me as i learn to improve, putting me into a chastity device, setting strict standards for me, helping me learn to sew and improve my domesticity. She knows that i am trying my hardest to be of value to Her. i know She would be better served sexually if She would take a real man as a bull and W/we have discussed this, but for now She is uninterested. Still, She isn’t above teasing me about what will happen when She does take a bull, the demeaning things that will be required of me.