I am someone who is completely unique in this world, someone I need to take care of for the rest of my life, and therefore someone I need to help take each step forwards, warmly and patiently, to allow to rest on some days and to encourage on others - I believe that the more I look into this strange being, myself, the more routes I will find to happiness.”

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Will strike a chord with anyone who feels that their public life is at odds with how they really feel inside.' Red Catatan teknis: Halaman warna pink (atau ungu?) nggak nyaman banget dibaca. Apalagi yang full begitu huhu. Dan kadang banyak spasi renggang (mungkin karena tipe dialog, beberapa kata yang nggak dipenggal bikin renggangnya jadi nggak nyaman dibaca). Selain itu, masih menemukan "rubah" di buku ini, haha. Above all, my biggest take away from her story is how important it is to speak to people about how you’re feeling. I’ve always been a firm believer in sharing your thoughts and emotions with people you trust. Even though thoughts themselves have no weight, they can be a heavy burden. Sharing that burden with someone else, someone you trust and perhaps love, can not only lighten that burden, but it can also create a strong bond between you and that trusted person. Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her - what to call it? - depression? She feels persistently low, anxious, endlessly self-doubting, but also highly judgemental of others. She hides her feelings well at work and with friends; adept at performing the calmness, even ease, her lifestyle demands. The effort is exhausting, overwhelming, and keeps her from forming deep relationships. This can't be normal. I used to treat empathy as something very difficult, and shut myself off from the things that didn’t affect me emotionally. But surely to create something in me that didn’t exist before and to extend emotional solidarity to another person is one of the rites of adulthood. We are so far, and yet so near to so many people.she got annoyed when female friends and acquaintances praised her for being pretty, yet got jealous and unhappy when men didn't compliment her on her appearances

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i really enjoyed the first half of this book. the writing style is very blunt and straightforward which i found myself appreciating (for this topic) but i lost interest over halfway, for the same reason. it felt very repetitive and lost direction. it covered many topics such as depression, self-esteem, friendships/partners, etc. You are fine now, just the way you are. You she got offended when a friend didn't seem to enjoy a book she recommended, and sent a scathing message to said friend, calling her "arrogant and exhausting"I reached for “I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki” by Baek Sehee for two main reasons: 1) I hoped to get a better insight into the way a standard therapy is conducted in South Korea, 2) I was interested to see how therapist’s culture influences the approach. The book, structured in the form of twelve conversations is a record of three months out of ten years of the author’s therapy, plus some loose chapters about her problems and thoughts. Earnest . . . clever . . . [Baek Sehee] uses months of (real) transcripts from her therapy sessions to explore her own depression and anxiety, always tiptoeing toward something like self-awareness. The literal Ctrl+C of the discussions you have with your psychiatrist do not hold any literary merit, which surprises me and puts into question the validity of creative writing courses in Korea. Did 언니 learn nothing? You are fine now, just the way you are. You might say silly things when drunk, there may be side effects from the pills, but you’re fine. If the latter happens, all you have to do is call me up and swear at me.’ It’s impossible to fathom the sadness of those who are left behind, but if life gives one more suffering than death, shouldn’t we respect their right to end life? We are so bad at mourning in our society. Maybe it’s a failure of respect. Some call those who choose their own death sinners or failures or losers who give up. Is living until the end really a triumph in every case? As if there can be any true winning or losing in this game of life”

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America is far past this surface-leveled interest of wellness since our Woody Allen women who all went to shrinks and even our YoutubeBetterHelpsponsoredGetYour10%Off! ads and the overall millenial movement of Canva-concocted pastel infographs that parrot pretty nothings.Korean author Baek-Sehee has her whole life ahead of her. She works as a successful young social media director at a publishing house where her boss seems to genuinely care about her. Yet, despite her loving friends and doting family, she finds herself at a loss. She feels depressed, constantly running low, feeling anxious, and self-conscious. On the outside, she cultivates a perfect porcelain mask for her loved ones, who are not at all aware of the agony she endures. To find answers, she decides to consult a psychiatrist. What’s wrong with her? Such turmoil can’t be normal, right? The author claims to have learned several things - she understood that she can let herself be, that she can let herself feel whatever she feels, that she interprets events in her life depending on her mood. However, I would expect her to learn this and start processing the positive change within the first month of therapy, not after ten years. The fact that her psychiatrist didn’t give her any homework, didn’t explain what they are going to do in their therapy sessions, left me speechless. I always find it quite difficult to rate non-fiction, especially when it’s a very honest and vulnerable story, so I shall leave my thoughts here instead :) I used to love being alone. Lying in my bed as I read or daydreamed, taking walks, listening to music on the bus or subway, napping, all of these were my favourite times of the day. But for the past two weeks I've felt inundated by a strange feeling called 'boredom'.” To learn about and imagine the emotions that I don’t understand or immediately empathise with: that is the affection I extend to others, and the only way to ensure that what’s inside of us doesn’t dry up or rot…’

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I feel this is a must read book and it has gained popularity over the years ever since it got published in Korea for so many reasons, one of the reason I feel is that it has a very comprehensive way of presentation which is very easy to follow regarding the talk between the author and the psychiatrist. I had prayed for 2020 to start of well for me, but alas, January did not end as the best time for me. However, the presence of this book, the words and dialogues written by Baek Se-hee were able to help me cope with my own dark overwhelming thoughts. I didn't finish the book in one seating, it took a whole deal lot of times, but I am utterly grateful for it. I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokpokki is the kind of book that I will keep very close to me, and will reach out to it again whenever I'm at my lowest. I want to love and be loved. i wan to find a way where I don't hurt myself. I want to live a life where I say things are good more than things are bad. I want to keep failing and discovering new and better directions. I want to enjoy the tides of feeling in me as the rhythms of life. I want to be the kind of person who can walk inside the vast darkness and find the one fragment of sunlight I can linger in for a long time. Having personally suffered from mental health issues myself, I was hopeful for this book. However, I found the writing disappointing, and the author immature, infuriating and insufferable. Some examples:Although I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokpokki is actually a compilation of written dialogues between the author and her psychiatrist, I was able to immerse myself into the conversation, to the point that it felt very intimate, as if I was in her situation all along. I was never clinically diagnosed with depression or any other mental illness, but I went through my own dark moments and I could relate to most of the things that Baek Se-hee went through. The confusion in Baek Se-hee's dialogues mirror my own, and the psychiatrist's words sent me a blanket of comfort that I absolutely needed.