Dead Inside

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The book ‘Dead Inside’, by Chandler Morrison, presents an exploration of the philosophical conflict between spirituality and secularism, as well as faith and doubt. This can make it difficult to share your emptiness and receive social support. It can also play a role in worsening the feelings of emptiness that you are experiencing. You Might Feel Physically Empty I think what I loved the most about this book is the writing style. I love how poetic this book is. The metaphors stated here were beautifully painted in my mind as I read them. The mention of some old music is amazing too. (Shine On You Crazy Diamond and The Wall by Floyd are my favorites.) While reading this book, I felt like I was either watching a sad 90’s movie or listening to a friend talk. It was an easy read but the contents are not easy on my eyes and my heart. And that’s okay. I think I can take that. So yeah I am quite shooketh to say the least. And after every twisted thing I just read what I'm the most surprised by, is the 𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘 𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐊 𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐎𝐑 the book had. I was ready for being disturbed or grossed out but i was not prepared to be amused, and by that i do mean me laughing my ass off at how absurdly funny some of the quotes were. And I have No shame whatsoever admitting this. Through its protagonist’s journey from darkness to light, it suggests that even in times of despair one can find a way to liberation.

When I found out that I was going outward bound, I thought it was a death sentence. I truly believed my parents were sending me off to get eaten by a bear or fall off a cliff. Or possibly starve. I begged. I pleaded. I cried. In desperate hope that my parents would change their minds and take me home. They didn't. This book through morality out the 𝐅#𝐂𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 planet but it was a 𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐀𝐂𝐔𝐋𝐀𝐑, 𝐅𝐀𝐒𝐂𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐇𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐈𝐅𝐘𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃. Overall, Dead Inside provides an invaluable insight into the depths of our emotions and serves as a reminder that no matter how far down one goes, there is always hope on the horizon – like a light at the end of a tunnel. What makes this book so horrifyingly gripping is that it is real. A true story. Starting out in the 1980s, 13-year-old Cyndy had casually tried marijuana and alcohol as a way to cope with her disgusting step-father and her turn-the-other-cheek mother. While Cyndy's friends were more into drugs and alcohol, she preferred their company and the loyalty she received when she made the choice to run away from her destructive home life. Unwilling to admit what was really going on, her parents told Cyndy that she was being sent to boarding school and dump her off to Straight, Inc - a place that 'fixes' troubled teens by making them admit to things they never did, brainwashing them, treating them like sub-humans, and shaming them for sport. Disclaimer: This book was sent to me by the publisher, Sourcebooks Fire, via NetGalley for an honest review.Mind you, I did read “WOOM” by Duncan Ralston and thought that was another insane, creepy, disgusting kind of book but my goodness, “Dead Inside” took it to levels I never thought could be possible. The actual story here isn’t bad at all but again, I doubt this would ever happen in real life so remember, if you go along for this ride and throw common sense and reality out the window, it’s better enjoyed that way.

Disclaimer: A free copy of this book was received through NetGalley in exchange for an honest review. Oh, to be “cool.” This novel was one of those books that after I read it, I stopped and reflected about what actually I had just read. I thought there were moments inside this novel that had excellent issues to ponder and the novel being a memoir made it hit home even harder. It wasn’t that Cyndy was a bad kid, she had just wanted to be with the cool kids and get away from her home life. She experimented with drugs just a few times to look “cool” and after reading the novel, I thought what could she had done differently because what she did now would change her life forever.

If anything on this list triggers you or would make you feel uncomfortable at all, whatever you do, please do not read this book. Needless to say, this is one hell of a dark book. It’s bizarre, twisted, one of those splatterpunk kinds of books that is just beyond weird and well, disturbing. “Dead Inside” is a very graphic read but, I’m a metalhead, grew up in the 80s/90s watching tons of horror movies and TV shows I probably shouldn’t have been watching at such a young age, and at least for me, this didn’t really bother me as I look at it as just words on paper. Whether they read Dead Inside or one of his other works, readers can expect to experience an emotionally-gripping journey filled with unexpected twists and moments of profound insight. Does the book contain any religious themes? this book actually reminded me a little bit of the Dexter series by Jeff Lindsay in that way (POV from a sociopath & the morbid humour). the obvious differences between Dexter, and the main character here though are that Dexter was actually quite likeable overall, and someone you kinda root for regardless of him being a murderer (while the mc in this book was clearly just a horrible person) and Dexter obviously wasn’t a necrophiliac.

Dead Inside focuses on a protagonist who is struggling with their own identity and inner turmoil. Through raw and honest writing style, Morrison has crafted a story that resonates deeply within readers who can relate to feeling lost or trapped in life due to social pressures or expectations. When someone suggests they are "dying inside," it might have a few different meanings depending on the context. It could mean that they feel empty and hopeless. It can also be an expression people use when they are so upset or embarrassed by something that they cope by numbing their emotions. In some cases, people use the expression to indicate a state of intense humor that can't be expressed overtly for social reasons. Honestly, EVERYONE needs to read this. For parents who are thinking of giving this to their kids to read, please keep in mind that there is a bit of sexual abuse that happens in the beginning of the story. That aside, this is a tale that anyone would be enthralled by. As soon as I finished this book I immediately started researching Straight Inc. and other programs like it. This is a disturbing story that will make your heart droop, but it is a MUST read! GO GET THIS!! You will not be disappointed. I appreciate this expose and hope it inspires others to reveal stories of their hardships with "factual" evidence intertwined with their own personal histories.I have to say guys, I wasn’t expecting this story to turn out like that at all. A few months ago I was looking through the new books on Netgalley, found this story and immediately requested it. I had heard about these types of camps and institutions years ago, but I have never looked into them that deeply. This story follows Cyndy Etler as she recounts her adolescence and her time in a “tough love” style rehabilitation camp. To be honest, I do not know how I’d be reviewing this one because it is a memoir. I cannot judge the characters, plot or setting. Those aspects were not invented or carefully weaved and structured in the mind of the storyteller to come up with a great plot and narrative to tell. While there are moments of joy and hope present in Dead Inside, much of the story focuses on how we deal with pain and suffering when life throws us into unexpected situations.